Anxiety comes over like waves. One minute my head is above water, the next I have waves of debilitating anxiety. It washes over me so that all I want to do is go to bed with the covers over my head. I don’t feel like I’m coping. I wish I…
Category: Major Depression
At War With Myself – Disordered Eating
Content – Disordered eating. Binge eating, no purge. Shame. Hopeless feelings. Anxiety. Inpatient for medication management. I had therapy today where it was decided that I’ll have a short set time with extra home care. I’ll be adding a 3 hr day to Saturday until the beginning of the year….
Slow Moving and Art Updates.
I woke around 9am but I didn’t get up until 1 pm. I just couldn’t get going. Yesterday was a full day in that we went to Michael’s craft store, Hobby Lobby and Lowes. I got a sunflower stash at Michael’s, all 4 of the large sunflowers total $10. Score!…
Artist Thoughts: The Color of Healing
I recently purchased a new dress for the first time in over 30 years. I’d been wanting a kaftan so I purchased a pink tie dye kaftan. That got the ball rolling and lead to dress number 2. When I was a child I didn’t wear much white because I…
My Goals are Still in Sight
I’m still rolling. 🙂 What an exciting few weeks. I went from mourning my old CNA to getting a new one with whom I am very well matched. Having her means I can let her do some things and leave other things to me. I can keep up with my…
Strong Enough
Today is one of those days where I feel the weight of what happened in the hospital. I feel shocked, stunned, grieved. I can only describe it as a train wreck where I can still hear the sound of metal crumbling around me. What I feel today must be what…
Don’t Forget Me
My physical wounds have healed faster than emotional wounds. There’s a real fear that time will pass, I’ll ‘look better’, and people will forget that on the inside I’m still struggling. When all this first happened and for the entire 5 months, friends leaped to my assistance. I had more…
Cheesy the Chubby Frog and Aquarium Therapy
A video for friends. At the end of the video I said these are my ‘frogs’ but only Cheesy the Chubby Frog stars in this short vid.
The Silent Loud One
I did not expect this painting to ever be chosen, to be taken home. I couldn’t believe when I got the email telling me of the sale for “Ariel Knew it Would Rain.” She’s art that’s difficult to look at because, though she is silent, her face tells you everything. What…
Wash Away
 . Ink on paper. She was drawn in ink then streams of water were added. I scanned her before I changed her. There’s more color around her now. Jordan