I wonder if my cat hates my job every bit as much as I hated my mother’s profession? How many times have I said to Joe Schmoe, “Here I come?” but made him wait a long time in dead silence? How many times have I sworn to take a break?…
Category: Sketchbook diary
The Crooked Tea Cup – Chatter Art
I take pen to paper and near violently sketch, in order to manage obsessive thoughts and counting. The Etsy painting expresses anxiety building that I needed to manage. I paint what’s swirling in my head, marching, counting or popping. Art helps manage the symptoms and situation. When focused, I’ll express…
A double shot of usefulness
I’ve not shown off my Philodendron Hope plant in awhile. It’s growing out of two Betta tanks. I’m going to clip it back soon and allow certain leaves to mature. It’ll look nicer cut back. I have hope. There’s no doubt about the hope I have, but the path to…
Father. Art.
I keep sighing. My heart is heavy but I keep trying to lift it up. The fatigue is insane. I’m learning so much about how OCD affects my life and how it affected my mother and sister. I don’t know why I keep thinking about my father. I remember his…
How My Head Works. Worth the Fight.
I can’t believe I left the “T” out when sketching. LOL In my defense, I was in the hospital. I had to slide the “T” in as best I could. I’ve not heard back for my primary doctor to clarify if he wants me 100% non weight bearing now or…
Sobering Concerns. Uncertainty. Self Doubt
I was in the hospital worried for my new family and my friends who have been through the storm with me. How can I ask them to stick this out, again? I feel guilty about the news I got from test results. I wasn’t expecting it at all. A downloaded…
Art. Set Backs. Forward Bound.
I was able to add three paintings to my Etsy shop. I’ve got a fourth painting coming soon. I’ve been able to lean heavily on art to help with anxiety which continues to be very high. One reason for high anxiety is a health issue. I’m not going to attempt…
Healing. Heart and Rock Art
Drawing and doodling continue to be my primary way of relieving anxiety; however, I may have a new way in a few months. Before the wrists, my doctor approved me to do one hour of vigorous exercise each day. I enjoy exercise. Always have. I was going to go to…
Anxiety. Support. Long Haul.
I bought a second sketchbook that’s small and easy to take with me if / when I leave the house. It’s also easier to hold in bed. And for the first time in a good long time, I had to buy art supplies. I was able to get ahold of…
Life in Pictures – The Assignment
My abandonment issues have raged since the exit of the CNA I adored. She’s been gone for a week now. It’s affected my trust issues, paranoia and OCD issues. Going through the week with her knowing she would be gone in a few days was rather difficult. I can feel…