Deeply Sad. Anxious. Empty. Unmotivated. Withdrawn. Fragile. Longing for my mother. When I returned home I was exhausted emotionally and physically but I didn’t expect to feel deeply sad or to begin to miss my biological family. Right now I miss the idea of who my mother should have been….
Month: June 2023
This Body and Mind on Vacation
There’s no one word to describe the trip. I’ll try to list a few: successful, physically painful all the way up to excruciating. I was joyful, energized. The trip was sobering with quite a few insightful moments. I laughed a lot. No tears at all. Driving down and back was…
Suicide. Secrets. Imaginary boxes.
Subject matter – No details of anything but I do talk about where I am with grief. Very emotional…. I’m all over the place today. Today my CNA asked about K. I basically just said that sometimes young people don’t have enough life experience to fully understand “this too shall…
How My Head Works. Worth the Fight.
I can’t believe I left the “T” out when sketching. LOL In my defense, I was in the hospital. I had to slide the “T” in as best I could. I’ve not heard back for my primary doctor to clarify if he wants me 100% non weight bearing now or…